Our arrival to society again is being tough, both phisycally and psychologically, although the worst part is over.
Along these months we have been experiencing as many extremes of human feelings as there can possibly be.
From the abysmal lonelyness of a dark well, to the oppression of a crowd created entirely by your mind, passing through the rabbit´s warren.
From the pure sadness of the funeral of your own dad, to the euphotia of the wildest rave-party, all of it in seconds-time.
All was useless to shut our moaning pain up.
We have tested our boundries as human beings, and even today I am not sure wether we are the same persons that started this blog or not . We feel our souls have been struggled out of our bodies, and any innocence left in our grown up spirit has gone with it.
We have had much time to think, and we have came to the conclussion that we have to move forward to regain our confidence. Nowadays we are just an empty frame, an efficient automaton with the only weapon of the mind. If this is the only thing we have left, we will use it. With it´s help we trust we can feel alive again.
Our first step consisted in burning all our words written during this time, all the theories we made up, the hypothesis we planted, the experiences we had as we experimented several drugs at the same time, all on fire. As the phenix, we will reemerge from the ashes to start again. Maybe other people will come to the same conclussions soon, maybe not, but our only duty now is to forget... and to forgive.
As once our colleague Avid Vamiso said "The greatest good for anyone is a disturbed mind", so our gift will not be wasted in vain depressions and we will be on anyone who could possibly need us.
Ray Carlsson
